
I was a member of Radiohead. We had travelled to a beautiful cave with deep pools. The song we recorded was magnificent. At the very end of the recording, I jumped into the water. The sound of the splash remained in the recording at the end of the song. Somebody handed out celebratory cigarettes, and Thom Yorke made some contemplative comment about the spiritual nature of matter. I thought immediately about such comments I had made in the past, and how irritated people had been that an artist should have opinions about things that belong to the realm of ‘scientific’ inquiry, constituting an expertise which artists ought not claim to have. Such people had damaged my curiosity and willingness to openly conjecture. But here now, listening to Thom, I felt that this was exactly the role of the artist- to conjecture, to explore the world by means of dream, which is a different form of knowing. Later, I was sitting on the limestone. Beside me there was a tupperware container full of toilet paper I had used to wipe my excrement. Somehow, on one of the pieces of soiled paper, the faeces had formed a letter- a collection of words, or rather, an image rich with meaning, addressed to my mother- which asked penetrating questions regarding the abuse of an aunt. And somehow, I could see on the toilet paper whether my mother had seen the message, or whether she was writing a reply. She had seen the message, and had begun to reply, but then stopped, and I never heard from her. Later I was at some sort of retreat or festival, where I was working in a cafe that was owned by a morbidly obese aboriginal woman. Tara was working here too. I was not very close with either woman, but they were both inseparable with each-other. The place was open for business, but the floor was cluttered with goods from a delivery that hadn’t been put away yet. A young-looking African woman came into the store, and spoke to the owner. After a few minutes, she turned to me and said, ‘I am the mirror of blood, the queen of fire, and the mother of war in Africa. You are lucky. If I want you, I will have you.” I suddenly realised in horror that she was a vampire, like Akasha from The Queen of the Damned. I immediately left the room, going through the back hallways of the cafe to another area of the festival. There I met Adam Russell, and proceeded to tell him what had just happened. He seemed very interested, and chatted with me about the strange woman. To each detail which I elaborated, he responded with ample commentary. Suddenly Tara and the cafe owner appeared and interrupted my conversation with Adam to announce they were going to the hospital. Tara had got something in her eye. I explained that I had recently got something in my eye, too, but I wouldn’t go with them. I already had a doctor appointment on Tuesday. Later, I was working with Tara at the cafe, and the African woman came again. She chatted awhile with Tara before deciding to feed me some of her blood. The manner in which she did this was to offer me two small leaves. One of the leaves contained blood instead of sap. I could see its veins. It looked like a membrane of skin. I licked the leaf gingerly. I found it disgusting, and was reluctant to taste it, but she told me I must drink more, or my joints will be stiff and immobile, and she would not abide that. But the more I tasted, the more delicious was the blood. I became very desirous of the blood, until I was ravenously, unthinkingly hungry, drinking her blood freely. When this was done, I saw that Tara had fang teeth. I realized that she was, and had always been, a vampire. She presented me with a dish of strawberries. She told me that this was her own way of taking blood- she would impregnate the strawberries with blood, and then eat the strawberries. I felt I had been initiated into a great secret.
This is a rich and multi-layered dream, filled with symbolism, emotions, and various settings that paint a vivid tapestry of your subconscious thoughts and feelings. Here is a detailed interpretation of your dream:
Interpretation: Dreaming of being a part of Radiohead suggests a desire for creativity and collaboration. Radiohead, known for their avant-garde music and philosophical lyrics, may symbolize your aspiration to explore innovative ideas and express yourself artistically. The magnificent song recorded may represent a successful collaboration or creative achievement you seek in waking life.
Symbolism: Caves often symbolize the subconscious mind or entering unknown areas of oneself. The deep pools inside may reflect deep emotions or untapped potential. The splash sound left on the recording could represent an indelible mark you wish to leave or the imperfections that make life beautiful.
Thoughts: The contemplative comment by Thom Yorke about the spiritual nature of matter touches on your own concerns about the intersection of art and science. It reflects your inner conflict about the role of an artist as a thinker and commentator on scientific or existential matters. The irritation you recall people having might signify past criticisms that stifled your curiosity, while this moment in the dream reaffirms the artist's role in exploring and conjecturing.
Symbolism: The soiled paper with words addressed to your mother could represent unresolved family issues or emotions that have been repressed. The letter addressing sensitive subjects like abuse signifies a desire for communication and understanding regarding familial topics that have remained unspoken.
Setting: These communal environments symbolize opportunities for socializing, self-discovery, and shared experiences with others. Working in a small business environment like a café might indicate your connection to community or personal responsibilities.
Symbolism: The African woman claiming to be a vampire, reminiscent of Akasha, represents a powerful, possibly threatening influence or realization in your life. Vampires could symbolize seduction, power, or a fear of being drained emotionally by someone or something.
Transformation: Tara revealing her true vampire nature might suggest discovering hidden aspects of people close to you, or perhaps hidden qualities within yourself. The initiation into drinking blood—initially repulsive but eventually desirable—reflects a transformation or acceptance of something previously resisted; it may represent succumbing to a fascination or addiction.
Overall Themes: This dream explores themes of creativity, artistic expression, familial communication, transformation, and the complexities of hidden or forbidden knowledge. Consider which waking life situations or relationships these themes may relate to.
The dream encourages embracing your creativity and artistic conjecture while addressing hidden or uncomfortable truths in your personal life. It invites you to explore deeper emotions and grow from them, potentially leading to personal transformation and deeper understanding.